Hotel Rwanda

I think it is important that the story is known. It is hard to get through emotionally, but sometimes the truth hurts.

A side note... the movie looks down on the the US and other "white" nations because they weren't stepping in to help the Tutsi refugees during their struggle against the Hutu militia. I was thinking the same thing during the film, I was dissapointed in the US for not helping... but then I got to thinking... isn't over 1/2 of the US population pissed off right now because we are off in another country trying to regulate someone else's situation? I don't know what's right or wrong. Should we stand back & let other countries deal w/their own problems? But what about when it comes to Starvation? War? Genocide? Is it ever OK to step in & help? I imagine hearing, "well, yeah, when it comes to genocide then it's OK"... but how do you know that that is what's really going on if you haven't put your nose somewhere it "doesn't belong" already. These are just thoughts running through my head, I haven't come to any solid conclusions yet. But what I've once again realized is...

"We're Damned if we Do & We're Damned if we Don't."

Oh, Also... Don Cheadle is Awesome!

School or Work?

Dave asked me the question yesterday, "So, do you think you have more free time now or when you were in school?"

I don't know for sure, but what I do know is that I have less control over my time now than I ever did before... and I HATE that!!! Not only do I HATE being told what to do, but I'm also not the kind of person who is able to set something down before it is finished and because of that I end up spending my time not at "work", working...

For example, I finished running a study yesterday & today was time to start analyzing the data (yippee... for real... I love it!). I was crunching numbers all day and when it started getting down to where I was seeing real results, it's after 5:30 & I should've already gone home... not just for the night, but for the whole weekend. Now don't get me wrong, I love the weekends. I love getting 2 1/3 days to get to relax, BUT I am unable to relax when there are projects left undone.

I really would have liked to stay to finish what I was doing, work all night and then take Saturday-Monday off. Shouldn't I be allowed to do that? I mean, as long as there aren't any meetings or subjects to run I think I should be able to get my 40 hrs/week done on MY time.

Hopefully I'll be able to forget about the data soon... I don't need to spend my whole weekend thinking of what I'll be paid to think about on Monday.

Let's Make a New Day

I motion to pass a new holiday... Fuck PC Day!!

no, not computers... fuck the entire "Politically Correct" filter that we are supposed to put over our mouths**. Ideally, the way this would work is that people can say what they're thinking and others won't be winy bitches when they don't like the truth. How's that? To me, only at that point can we really start to examine what "problems" we've actually got on our hands.


**This holiday would not encourage degrading, vulgar, or hateful words or actions, it is just an attempt to find out what world we're actually living in.

It starts

About Me:

I grew up in the south suburbs of Chicago and went to school at the University of Illinois-Chicago where I received my degree in Industrial Engineering.


After college I moved to Santa Monica, CA.


With my favorite guy in the world, Dave


The hard part was leaving my family full of special people behind.


And now I'm trying to find my place in this world while balancing the many sides of me.